I'm too afraid to tell you I'm terrified.
I'm so used to lying, I can't tell you the truth.
My feet are poised at the edge of a cliff
My mind is hanging by the thread of this noose
That I fashion for myself
Out of every time I've held my tongue
Oh why haven't I just let myself speak?
Too fat to eat.
Too tired to sleep.
You deserve to start.
You don't deserve dreams.
My reasoning is flawed, I know this.
I don't know why I'm even still here
Am I afraid of blackness or am I afraid of fear?
I'm barely holding on to my thread of an existence.
What is forgiveness, I've never know such a kindness.
Don't cry, it's alright, don't let them know your weak
Don't give in no one can hurt me but me
It's all my fault please don't notice me
I'm all alone in the darkness and there is no one to blame but me
It's my fault
I'm too weak
I can't hold on
I can't sleep
Who am I?
Where am I?
What's going on?
What is this?