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I woke to find you standing above me
A gun in hand, but the barrel was empty
I promised I would never hurt you
But you never said you would never hurt me

Now I have come to realize that I am going to die
I have come to terms that everything I know is a lie
I realize this may all be a dream
So, someone come and pinch me please

Is this just the beginning?
What is going on my head is spinning?
What if everything is ending?
Let it be quick, your smile is condescending.

I know now that you were never mine
but you knew that I was always yours
I am screaming, can't you hear my plea?
I am falling apart, if you opened your eyes you would see

Now I have come to realize that I am going to die
I have come to terms that everything I know is a lie
I realize this may all be a dream
So, someone come and pinch me please

I am so afraid what did I ever do?
Why is this happening, can this be true?
I am so confused what did I ever do?
I know, I never stopped loving you...
I've been deleting all of my social media the past two weeks. I deleted both of my facebooks and all three of my Gaia accounts.
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Explosions In The Sky
If I lied to you would you know?
would my eyes show you the fault in my integrity

Am I a monster for being so hidden?
or am I trying to prolong my destruction

I long for acceptance
but I feed on my solitude

it fuels my depression
gives me an explanation to my sadness

without it, I would be nothing
with it I am no one

what is wrong with me
am I falling past blame

My memories I try so hard to regress
in my dreams the come back to haunt me ever stronger

this one truth I will allow myself
I am not who I appear to be

a shadow of my sanity
a mirage of my integrity

I lost my self in this darkness
a darkness I cannot control

the abyss at my feet is growing
and my fear has begun to show,

tell me does anyone understand
tell me, can anyone hold my hand?

can god guide me to salvation
or the devil, to eternal damnation

I believed in you once and now my heart is failing,
my resolve is waning

I haven't taken my medicine in weeks,
this pain that keeps me awake at night proves to me that I am still alive

the tears fall like acid, scarring my face.
my words are poison

would to be so bad to die?
is it so terrible to lie..?

I cannot see a point in this.
I cannot find a release from it...
Can some one please tell me what is wrong with my head?
These moments are passing, and something keeps telling me I'm better off dead.
I am so set in finding out where I went wrong, and why.
Why must it be so hard to simply say goodbye?
I've been deleting all of my social media the past two weeks. I deleted both of my facebooks and all three of my Gaia accounts.
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Explosions In The Sky

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Jeramiah
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United States
Well, my name is Jeramy. I am eighteen I like poetry and music a lot. I don't really know what to say about myself. I am just a weird kid. I'm college trying to become a psychiatrist. I do have a history, I will not go into details on a personal level; but I will say I have been through a bit. And I am always here to talk to people. I want to help others, the help I never got. I really care about people. And I know I may not know you all personally, but I would love to be your friend. (:

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Love always, Jeramiah
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Williamsburgexpired Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2014
hello, its been a while.
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SomeSortofMax Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you!
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Thediamondintherough Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the favorite :heart:
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AudeS Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014
My apprication goes to you for faving one of my latest photographies.
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tintedlies Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
(:
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kwadryna Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave! : D
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gutboy560 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
Thanks for the fave! :)
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Mad-Identity Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
thank you for all the favs, friend
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tintedlies Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
The problem is I would favourite all of your work.. xD
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Mad-Identity Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
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