The phone number you have called is no longer in s

There is a reason you blocked my number, but I don't know what it is.
Just like there is a reason we don;t talk any more and my heart keeps saying it's me.
And I know there is no reason it should have happened  this way but my head keeps telling me I'm wrong.
I know that I miss you.
And that I always will.
I can remember hugging you and your heart starting to race and not knowing why
I can remember your blue eyes and how Blonde hair can be deceiving.
I wish I could forget you but in a way you helped me grow.
Everyday I think about you, and I know I shouldn't
I miss you.
Why did you have to say good bye?
Was our friendship so terrible that when you moved away you had cast me out like yesterdays coffee?
Or did you find someone else to brighten your day?
I'm too afraid to call you from my new cell phone because I am scared you will remember my voice and hang up...
My mother told me that you loved me, and that that was wrong.
All I know is I can still remember how your hugs felt.
And i miss them.
I miss your laughter, i miss your eyes, i miss you in the moonlight over simple goodbyes.
I miss you.
You've become my addiction now that you're gone, but I'm an adult now.
And I'm not allowed to cry.